Well, it has been a long time since I have written anything here. Where do I even begin? It has been a rollercoaster of a month for me.
Literally, a week after my grandpa passed away so did my grandma. I flew home that weekend to be with family and attend services. Then flew back to Asheville to work. And since then, my life has been consumed with teaching (which has been just a heck of a ride as well). And then last week my life started to slow down a little bit... And when I thought I was great, BAM. Grief hit me. Hard.
I was listening to messages because someone had called me and left a message, but of course to do that I had to listen to old messages and perhaps delete a few. That's when I heard the sweet, sweet voice of my grandma Rea on the other end of the telephone. And boom. The tears came and came steadily.
So this week has been hard. My heart has been breaking. And questions are rising to the surface. Like, If disease is not from God and He turns these bad things into good, what is the good? Show my the beauty! Show me how this became a good thing? Because right now, it feels like an awful bad thing. I don't see the redemption, the restoration.
I just miss my Grandma.
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Katie bug. I am so sorry! I'm not going to tell you that "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" or that "everything happens for a reason" (even though I usually believe that). I will tell you to let those tears come, but make sure to cry some happy ones as well. You have so many wonderful memories of Grandma Rea and I know you miss her terribly. But, honor her by remembering the great times you two shared. And know that I'm just two hours away if you need me. I'll be there in a heartbeat. Love you.
ReplyDeleteAsh- you are such a good friend! I love you so much girl. I can't wait to be in Boone with you :)
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